I know it sounds weird,but at times I just wish I could secretly drop in on peoples lives, just to get a better understanding of any knowledge they have,how they deal with other people in social interactions,see how a vast amount of people act alone and when there in a group and how they managed to succeed and do some really fantastic things in there life.
I don't care about any random person personally, just what I could learn from them to better myself.
Anyway, to be honest, I really don't have any true close friends.
I mean, sure, there are people that I see every now and then that could have qualified as friends, but the relationship with these people seems so weak that I'm not even sure if friends is even the right way to describe them.
often times, I find myself, isolated in some place, away from people and when I'm with people,interaction goes as far as what is necessary.
It feels like if there is to be any relationship at all with anyone, the effort has to come from the other person completely, otherwise I just don't see or communicate with them all that much.
That just don't feel that kind of attractive pull towards other people,to interact with them,to speak to them,to stay in contact with them.
I have found that any repeated contact with a person usually comes out of convenience or necessity.
when I look at my family, they are most likely the best friends I have got.
I would like to say that part of what keeps the relationship with them it me being with them is out of chance and convenience, but Idk, there also may be a little bit more to it, as it is not often that I find myself repeated returning to any single person or group.
17-Oct-2013 11:13:25