Fys, I don't blame you on either my RP idea or your views on my posts. All your points are spot-on, and you are very kind to put so much effort into forming your posts to be positive and sincere. I used to be like that as well, spending lots of time to make sure everything I say was neat and nice, but I lost the patience for that. Maybe the past ten pages or so are painful, but for me, it is like real-life talking, and so, nothing special.
This is mostly due to real-life problems I've had with really bad people, and I soon realized that it's not worth "being nice" in a general sense. Sometimes, you have to be tough. Sometimes, you have to be a hard-ass. Sometimes, you have to be rude. Sometimes, you have to be critical in a negative manner, just for the sake of sending a very strong message across.
In my life, argument, insults and criticism directed against me I just don't view as threatening. I tend to be unemotional and critical over behavior, maybe even too much, but that's what I feel is the most honest thing to do. I dislike when people don't tell me things or keep their opinion back. For me, if someone has something to say, they should say it.
I think this is what happens when you read too much Greek philosophy: you become so accustomed to critical analyses, argument and philosophy, that you just end up fearlessly open to all challenges, and I am. But I also study Hagakure, Book of Five Rings, and medieval European combat treatises, so challenges are just things I go through daily; I incorporate a challenger's mentality to everything I do.
I learned that, when you live this kind of life, either two things will happen: you grow as an individual, or become, what I consider, a domesticated human. Domestication is weakness; adversity is strength.
Anyways, thank-you for your views, they are good.
30-Jul-2016 07:19:39
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