I feel so sad.. Why can't I enjoy this game anymore? Am I doing something wrong? I worked so hard to get to where I am, and for what? What do I have to show for it? Partyhats, rares, a bunch of gold, skill capes? What does that all mean?
I remember a few summers ago I would seriously play for an average of 12-16 hours per day. The crazy part was that it was fun!! I really enjoyed playing and when I wasn't online, I was counting down the hours/minutes until I could play again. I got so much satisfaction for hitting one milestone after the other. However, it isn't like that anymore. It's such a chore to play this game.
I've listened to the advice of other forumers on here and have taken a break while casually logging in once every few weeks to talk to friends and give money away. The scary thing was during that break, I didn't feel the urge to come back and play. Taking this break made me realize that I don't need to play this game anymore and I could live life perfectly fine without it.
In a sense, it did more harm than good because that urge to grind 120's/200m's is no longer within me. I do not like that realization because I miss being able to have fun playing Runescape.
I log in and I see my same friends still playing and making a lot of progress. I wish I could join them and continue the journey. I really wish I could enjoy this game like I once have but I just don't know how to...
07-Jan-2018 09:04:58