It was for several minutes that I remained so strangely perched along the side of that edge, slowly entering darkness as the candles from the atrium waned and the gas of the glowing chandeliers evaporated. I have, throughout life, prided myself on several facets of my being: of all the things which support my pride and defend my superlatives, there is a distinguished property. It, beyond the others, has engendered my affluence and has, through phases of applicability, been the cause for my relationships with many men of power and intellect, including the dear Monsieur Champeaux. This is my ingenuity. Beyond all peers, I have the ability to create distinctive solutions to elaborate, superficially unsolvable conundrums, delving into the solutions beyond the mere cosmetic and ensuring that, throughout my life, obstacles have not interfered with my ability to continue to subsist. It is difficult, I think, for any man to accept a situation that he cannot, despite intellect, power, or position, alter; it was especially difficult for this man to accept that situation of L'Morfique, unable to change any of the fatal qualities of the enervating situation. And this is why I continued to cling to that deteriorating floor, too stubborn to let go yet too stupid to surmise a method of freeing myself that did not end in utter discomposition: I had yet reserved the capacity of hope that, in my delirious, phantasmagoric state of consciousness, I could surmise innovation that would, eventually, engage me in a possibility of freedom. And, in fact, it was not painful, as odd as it would seem, to cling to that rotted bannister's previous demesne in fulfilling this odd and improbable hope; I had readjusted my weight on that found foothold to secure my rotundity against the cragged and angle side of the canyon; I as much leaned against the wall as I did stand upon my feet, and I kept my hands upon that rotted crevice merely for posterity and security rather than for safety.
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