Heya Jeremy Cheng, hope you don't mind me hopping on to reply to your message myself.
I'm sorry you feel as though there's a label on your head. It's never nice to wonder what people think of you, and it's worse if you catch yourself thinking that there might be those that think ill of you.
I can clarify that from my own perspective you're not considered a troll or a troublemaker. You seem passionate and active, and whilst we can all make mistakes and come across differently to how we might intend to I've never personally considered your content to be explicitly malicious or otherwise incorrect.
And while I don't want to talk on behalf of the F-Mod team, I get the impression that they don't dislike you either. No one is ever universally popular, but you're definitely not the opposite.
You hit the nail on the head when you spoke about trying to improve your content on the forums. Not because you need to, but because we should all strive to better ourselves as much as we're able to. Our styles and the way we talk and handle social situations evolves as we grow as people and to that end I'm excited to see where we all find ourselves further down the line.
Hopefully we'll look back and laugh at some of the concerns and conversations that have happened that seemed so big back then, but in reality were trivial to the bigger picture.