^i'v messed with stuff i shouldn't have many times...my mind is connected to something else but it needs a lot of energy so i only view that part of my thoughts when no one is home but i stole energy from a demonic force and it cut me....can't be explained, nothing was near me.
a bit before that issue above, trying to sleep i did have something try to take control of me, my head turned and i lost movement but i fought back, a lot of unexplained things have happened to me.....
I slept by a dead plant once and it revived, i did water it as i was curious but it bone dry dead and it had no flowers on it, was dead for 4+ months, It grew those flowers back before dying few weeks later. I do have the gift of healing and many other spiritual gifts but i can't use them at 100% due to being condemned by negative energy...My stress levels are if self harming is 200, atleast 20k+ :/ and people hate me most times + feeling of not belonging here on earth + feeling the pain of others and decoding world problems destroyed me sadly...
i still have no idea why i'm here, least i can just play video games to hide most of it.
30-Apr-2021 04:17:20