I am led to wonder, as I am lost within this sea, wandering the quarantined halls of the dying; witnessing as my last breath of air escapes my open mouth, in a testing, and symbolic demonstration of my life – from the depths of an unknown recess of darkness, into the land of life and hope, before its ultimate and final journey, where those foreign spheres of life, closed worlds within themselves, would flow upwards, joining the generalized assembly, conglomerated at the end of the journey – what might have been.
Upon seeing the schools of life pass before my dying eyes, I realize that this, the array of life, the beautiful shafts of tangible light, the differential majesty of the scene, might be my last sight of this equivocal life.
After feeling the wispy tendrils of a current upon my face, and a scuttling upon my tied feet, I open my eyes only to see an animal, harbored in its shell, scuttling away from me, to its home, its family – not that I know what such terms mean – and am again left, for this final chapter of my life, wondering what might have occurred in the next.
Would I have ever discovered meaning to those words – home… family … - or might I have continued the course fate had set me, further estranging myself to society, isolating myself in uncontrolled depression?
As my death is ever impending, and I immolate myself for the betterment of all others, I look up to the sea*s surface, and give myself, as does the sea to the earth, impenitently meeting the end; passing the last instantof life, to which I so selfishly clung, witnessing my breath – my life – float upwards, ever nearer to the heavens.
14-Apr-2008 19:35:11