I don't even know if I want to go for it anymore.
I'm insanely disappointed, even though I knew my chances at getting that one were near to nonexistent already.
I do like this name a lot as well, I would just love a meaningful single word name and my real name would have been by far the best possible choice for me.
Not the biggest deal if I end up sticking to this one but still, I definitely would not have minded to get to change it.