I just want to say I'm sincerely sorry for putting you through my autism. I know I made it seem like your fault, but it was never your fault, I was lying to myself and it was easier to blame you than to realise that.
I can’t believe I did that -- after the overdose everything just fell apart, we argued and argued and argued.
I know I’m probably the last person you want to hear from, but please hear me out. I don't know where to start so I’ll start with this; I’m really upset that our friendship is gone and it's made me miserable for the past couple of months.
Every time we fought it hurt me more, and now we’re not even talking anymore, let alone friends. I'm really struggling without you now, we used to be best friends and you mean a lot to me, more than you know.
I hate fighting, especially with you. My mistake ruined our friendship and I don't know how to make things right between us. Knowing that I did this to my best friend kills me. I don't know what I was thinking and I hate myself for it.
Our friendship is too valuable to me to end over this. To find another friend like you would be impossible, you’re caring, patient, funny... I can go on and on, and it doesn't feel right without you anymore.
I didn't mean for things to be like this and wish I could take everything back to when we were close friends, I know I can't but I can show you that this will never happen again and I'm still the guy you trusted and thought of as your best friend.
I keep apologising because I’ve been completely in the wrong to be so inconsiderate and act like I have, I wasn't the friend I should have been but I don't want to lose you because I think you're worth holding on to, I don't know why, but whenever I had a bad day, or week you always made me feel better, you were one of the few who could do that.
19-May-2016 14:36:11
