You should probably just lie down for the next 10 hours while you go through whatever you are going through, m8
And I swear I'm not going to let her know all the pain I have known
This is considered a discussion forum. An opening post for a discussion thread should be understandable and present a clear topic that you wish to discuss. When so many sentences are full of "blah blah blah", your topic is not clear at all, and is spam.
You have promoted links to outside sites. While safe links are permitted on the forums, they should only be included to enhance or support the forum discussion. They should not be used to advertise or drive traffic to those other sites.
You said, "I don't know the rules." The Rules for the Forums are linked at the top of each page -
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